Let me preface this blog post with this is not my best work but it needs to be published regardless. I started this post last April when I took the two sunrise photos on my way into work one morning and never finished it. It is rough, very rough but it really identifies something about myself that I need to acknowledge and address. Here is my post and hopefully I can write another one soon that can share the successes of my journey to see past the obstacles.
Everywhere I look, I see obstacles and it is really beginning to piss me off. This happens not only in my physical view of the world but also in how I view myself.
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| Powerlines obstructing a beautiful sunrise |
My experience with most other humans is that they never see the obstacles impeding our views. I have heard people marvel at the beauty of the sunrise or sunset but all I see are the powerlines obstructing my view. Everywhere I drive, I see the underground pipelines that have bisected our landscape. The roads themselves are obstacles to our planet's true beauty but do people really see them? I don't think so. Many people think cities, buildings, and bridges are pretty but I see concrete and steel polluting my view.
I wish I were gifted enough to see past the obstacles. I need a shift in my perspective. I know I am unhappy (even angry) with my current place in life but what have I done to make a change - lately, I haven't done much.
I have wallowed in my anger that things aren't moving anywhere with my snake dreams but do I try to make them move? Not really. I just see the obstacles in my path to achieving my dreams. I see the lack of time, the lack of money, and the lack of support as negatives and obstacles. I don't see the positive and wonderful view of my work, the lives I have touched, the opinions I have changed, or the inspiration of my snake talks. No. I do think I can see these things but they are blocked by the obstacles I create for myself.
It is time to see past the obstacles and I hope I can find ways to articulate my journey to reprogram my brain. Right now, I am just spinning at my desk trying to figure out what to do next but isn't this already a success? I know what I need to do - I need to see past the obstacles.
I wish I were gifted enough to see past the obstacles. I need a shift in my perspective. I know I am unhappy (even angry) with my current place in life but what have I done to make a change - lately, I haven't done much.
I have wallowed in my anger that things aren't moving anywhere with my snake dreams but do I try to make them move? Not really. I just see the obstacles in my path to achieving my dreams. I see the lack of time, the lack of money, and the lack of support as negatives and obstacles. I don't see the positive and wonderful view of my work, the lives I have touched, the opinions I have changed, or the inspiration of my snake talks. No. I do think I can see these things but they are blocked by the obstacles I create for myself.
It is time to see past the obstacles and I hope I can find ways to articulate my journey to reprogram my brain. Right now, I am just spinning at my desk trying to figure out what to do next but isn't this already a success? I know what I need to do - I need to see past the obstacles.
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| Concrete and steel with sunrise |
I think you have already overcome the first obstacle, which is to recognize that you are seeing them and they are stopping you from moving. In my experience, we then expect the obstacles (or the challenge) to magically disappear. They don't. It's a daily decision. Thanks for sharing and I wish you the courage to take this on every day!
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