Last night was hell - sleeping wise at least. I didn't sleep. Well that isn't entirely true - I did sleep just not very well.
|Tired at the office|
I fell asleep pretty fast after the last out of the World Series - there is something about baseball that puts me DIRECTLY to sleep. I watched the game only because it was a big moment in 2014 - I didn't care who won or lost.
|The last out in the 2014 World Series - Giants Win.|
I slept until 3:00am - then hell happened.
At 3:03am I was awake. I was stressed. I was hating myself with every bit of my power. I was dreading work the next day. Why I do this I will never know but I am guessing it is the resistance in my body trying to keep me in the same place - afraid of change.
|Chasing my dreams are for me - no more staying in the same place|
I was in and out of sleep until 5:13 am when my alarm finally went off. Yes, I set my alarm for strange times. I just read about someone else doing this too - how cool is that! My alarm on my iPad goes off daily at 5:13am and my alarm on my phone goes off at 6:16am just in case I am ignoring the iPad. Don't ask me why but I have always set my alarm for strange times.
|The only alarm on my phone at the moment.|
I got out of bed at 5:33am and took a shower. I got back into bed until 5:56am after my shower thinking that I could actually fall back asleep. Oh well - I tried.
So - that was my night. I spent it chasing sleep but never really finding it after 3 am.
So I am tired today. I am sure that some caffeine will try to make it better. I am not going to be bitter about my night last night. I am going to embrace my day and enjoy what is left of it. My "Transform My Life" app pinged me at 7:10am tell me not to be angry today. Since we do EVERYTHING that our phones tell us to do these days, I am going to have to be happy all day now.
Just to add to this blog here are some photos from my day so far.
|The bridge/tunnel of hell. This takes me to work every fucking day. WAIT! I am not going to be angry...|
|I am beginning to resent my sunrises because they lead directly to misery at work. I will try to see them for what they are though - BEAUTY!|
|Early morning view and reflections from my office taken with my GoPro|