Where should I start today? Since I am not really writing that much, I guess I can start anywhere and that will help. I am still stuck at my dead end anti-conservation job. I thought they were going to fire me last week but it was a false alarm. Someone got upset that I put my home address on MY scientific collection permit in Texas. I think they thought that I was preparing to leave and take the work with me – trouble is that if I leave here, I DO NOT want the work. I am sick of working for the insanely rich and ignorant. Or do I mean the rich and insanely ignorant? I am tired of being a part of the global climate crisis rather than being a solution. Regardless, I wasn’t fired last week. Maybe I will be let go this week (if I am lucky).
I have been overwhelmed with life lately - so much so that I have been finding myself shutting down more and more for the littlest things. Anything can trigger a shutdown these days. I am trying to keep my perspective and see the big picture but the details do bother me. A little too much right now – I wish I could just not care but that is not how I am built. I was able to bring snakes to approximately 75 people on Saturday. This is always so positive.
|Me and a few snakes at the Coalton Trailhead on Saturday|
I have also been doing well with getting active again. Last week, I joined Jackson for a weight lifting session, ran once, and went for bike ride with my neighbor. If I can keep this up, I know my energy levels will increase and I will want to do more and more. Plus, if I don’t keep this up, Jackson will be stronger than me before I know it. If he is anything like me as a teenager, he will get very strong in the next few months. His motivation is a bit strange and has to do with a school benchmark - to be able to bench press his body weight before January. If he can do that, he gets put into a P.E. group at school that doesn’t have to do much during class since they have already met the benchmark set for freshman. I like his thought process – work hard now to be lazy later. I think he has the right idea.
|Bike ride selfie|
Here is the summary of my life right now:
· Grossly overwhelmed with even the little things
· Trying to find perspective in my every day
· Slowly gaining traction with finding my active lifestyle again
· Still miserable at work
Definitely too many negatives but the positive is that I recognize that. Moving onward and upward…