Tuesday, October 4, 2016

The Oldest, The Middle, The Youngest


Since the title of this blog is Running With Snakes, I guess I should write a post about running or snakes.  If you meet me in person, I can just ramble on about both but when (especially lately) I sit down to write about them, I go blank.  Writer’s block hits and stays regardless of how long I sit in front of a computer.  I guess that is why the last two posts haven’t been that interesting and have just been me whining.  I need to whine a little before I find my inspiration.  I should also look to my boys for inspiration.  All three of them are excelling in their chosen paths right now so I guess I will start there and see how where snakes and running can fit in.

The Oldest
He is 14 and as I wrote in an earlier post, he has started lifting weights to meet school benchmarks for P.E. class.  This kid is smart too.  School comes easy to him and we never have to worry about him or his homework.  It just gets done.  No nagging, no bribing, no checking in.  This kid is driven to be successful without the constant prodding of his parents. 

The oldest

The Middle

This one will do anything and everything.  He has a passion for everything athletic and has started riding his bike and skateboard with the intent to get good at them.  In the short time he has been riding hard, he has come a long way.  This past weekend I took him to the Valmont Bike Park and he had a blast.  He just recently bought a cheap BMX bike to see if he really likes it – he already is making plans to upgrade and his bike is less than two weeks old.  He is advancing so fast on the bike and I am very impressed. 

The Middle
The Youngest

This kid is the snake kid.  He has a passion for all life and especially snakes.  The other day when we got home from school, he found a small jumping spider on the driveway and immediately scolded me for almost hitting it.  I could barely see it when looking for it outside of the car – no way I would have seen it while driving.  The little man gently scooped up the spider into his hands and relocated it to the garden so I wouldn’t hit it next time. 

The Youngest
These are my boys and they are all inspirational.  I sometimes lose this perspective but when I stop and look at them, they all make me proud.  They each are so different and each are very successful in what they are pursuing in life.  They are also so young and have a great future ahead of them.  I am going to start vlogging again so go subscribe to my YouTube channel so you don’t miss a beat.  J

I wasn’t able to fit running or snakes into this blog post but I promise I am getting warmer to it and the posts will start to flow again.  For now – enjoy this vlog from today.

Pokemon Go Therapy

Have you ever been somewhere that is completely counter to your personality?  I find myself in a place like that every day – the tiny and shitty workspace that my employer gives me.  Actually, I have to sign it out like a library book so I really don’t have a true workspace to myself.  Anyone at any time can sign it out ahead of me and I would have to find another place to sit.  Fortunately, my desk mess and lack of organization keeps that from happening.  The most interesting thing about my workspace is my view of the Grand Hyatt next door.  I have seen some things that I wish I could unsee but those are stories that do not belong in my blog (adult fetish video film making – send me an email if you want the pictures).  So, every day I spend 8 hours sitting in a place that is completely counter to me and it is really wearing me out.
 
My workspace with the hotel next door
I used to just sit and mope.  Now I get up and leave the office, walk around the block, catch a few Pokémon, and visit the 7-Eleven for some snacks.  This is helping.  In fact, I have been hitting my daily step goal of 15,000 steps more often than not these days. 
Do you play Pokémon Go?  It is a worthless game that I have become addicted to playing.  I am a true addict.  I find myself checking my phone constantly to see if there are new Pokémon spawning nearby. However, there is a huge benefit to being an addict to this silly game – I walk a lot more and a lot farther.  I am getting my steps.  I am up and out of my seat walking around.  It has become my buffer from that shitty workspace I have to inhabit for 8 hours every day.  That and the hotel next door.
 

Monday, October 3, 2016

Where should I start today?

Where should I start today?  Since I am not really writing that much, I guess I can start anywhere and that will help.  I am still stuck at my dead end anti-conservation job.  I thought they were going to fire me last week but it was a false alarm.  Someone got upset that I put my home address on MY scientific collection permit in Texas.  I think they thought that I was preparing to leave and take the work with me – trouble is that if I leave here, I DO NOT want the work.  I am sick of working for the insanely rich and ignorant.  Or do I mean the rich and insanely ignorant?  I am tired of being a part of the global climate crisis rather than being a solution.  Regardless, I wasn’t fired last week.  Maybe I will be let go this week (if I am lucky).
I have been overwhelmed with life lately - so much so that I have been finding myself shutting down more and more for the littlest things.  Anything can trigger a shutdown these days.  I am trying to keep my perspective and see the big picture but the details do bother me.  A little too much right now – I wish I could just not care but that is not how I am built.  I was able to bring snakes to approximately 75 people on Saturday.  This is always so positive.

Me and a few snakes at the Coalton Trailhead on Saturday
 
I have also been doing well with getting active again.  Last week, I joined Jackson for a weight lifting session, ran once, and went for bike ride with my neighbor.  If I can keep this up, I know my energy levels will increase and I will want to do more and more.  Plus, if I don’t keep this up, Jackson will be stronger than me before I know it.  If he is anything like me as a teenager, he will get very strong in the next few months.  His motivation is a bit strange and has to do with a school benchmark - to be able to bench press his body weight before January.  If he can do that, he gets put into a P.E. group at school that doesn’t have to do much during class since they have already met the benchmark set for freshman.  I like his thought process – work hard now to be lazy later.  I think he has the right idea.

Bike ride selfie
Here is the summary of my life right now:
·         Grossly overwhelmed with even the little things
·         Trying to find perspective in my every day
·         Slowly gaining traction with finding my active lifestyle again
·         Still miserable at work
Definitely too many negatives but the positive is that I recognize that.  Moving onward and upward…

Wednesday, June 22, 2016

INFP

I started this blog post over two years ago and am going to just publish it without much editing.  I have a lot of these blog posts I have never published that I will just publish any way.  New text is in red - old, original text from March 24, 2014 is in black:

My therapist, Jennifer, suggested I take a personality test to help focus our sessions to the way I think, feel, act, and live.  I thought this was a great idea.  Jennifer sent me a Meyers-Briggs test to take via email.  It took me six weeks to take the test.  No real reason why I didn’t take it except that I would never remember to take it.  The test was a small detail in my life that was easily ignored.
It turns out that the test was a large detail in the big picture of who I am, how I think, what I need, and how I act.  I guess I should have paid more attention to what my therapist was asking me to do.
Meyers-Briggs Test Results
My personality type turns out to be one of the rarest types in the world.      I can be classified as a dreamer without much of a doer inside of me.  Jennifer explained to me that INFP types are world changers when provided with the right support network.  I can’t picture myself changing the world but I do know that I am definitely a dreamer.  I spend a lot of my time inside my head thinking of new ideas and how to make them work.  I rarely vocalize or write down my ideas for fear of judgment and disapproval. 

The Center for Snake Conservation is one of those dreams.  I thought, planned, schemed, and dreamed about the CSC for over 10 years before I did anything about it.  I was scared the whole time to even consider that I could do anything remotely similar to my dream.  It took an absolutely miserable job and serious depression for me to found the CSC – I had to escape my situation and the CSC was the only dream that provided what I needed.
Here I am 3 years later (5 years now) and the CSC is still just a dream.  I daydream daily about being the first paid employee of the CSC but that is all I can do.  I lack the ability to make it happen.  I still need to find the doers that will help me change the world.  I have found a few doers but the next step is to learn delegation so I can do more dreaming and how to market/fundraise for the CSC.
Let’s talk a little about what it means to have the INFP personality type.  Below I list the strengths and weaknesses of an INFP type from the website 16personalities.com.  After each trait, I have written how the strength or weakness fits in my life and has made me who I am today.  Clearly, I never got around to writing about how each strength or weakness fits my life today.  Oh well - I am going to publish this anyway - extremely out of character for me.  Let's just say that I fit the descriptions below much better than the glove fit OJ and we all know he was guilty.  I can forget to eat or drink for hours and hours if out looking for snakes.  :)  

INFP strengths – copied directly from 16 Personalities (http://www.16personalities.com)
·       Passionate and energetic. INFPs tend to be very energetic when it comes to causes they believe in and are willing to fight for. They may be quiet and even shy in public, but their passion should not be underestimated.
·      Very creative. INFP personalities find it easy to interpret signs and hidden meanings – furthermore, their well-developed intuition has no difficulties connecting the dots and coming up with interesting, unusual ideas.
·       Open-minded and flexible. INFPs dislike being constrained by rules and do not seek to impose them on others. They tend to be fairly liberal, open-minded individuals, as long as their principles and ideas are not being challenged.
·       Idealistic. INFPs are perhaps the most idealistic of all personality types, believing that people are inherently good and everyone should do their best to fight evil and injustice in the world.
·       Seek and value harmony. INFPs do not want to dominate and work hard to ensure that everyone’s opinion is valued and heard.
·       Can be very dedicated and hard-working. As mentioned above, INFP personalities are both very passionate and idealistic. Not surprisingly, they can also be unbelievably dedicated to their chosen cause or an organization. It is unlikely that an INFP will give up simply because everyone else has abandoned the cause or it is getting difficult to keep going.
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INFP weaknesses
·       Too altruistic. INFPs may be so focused on doing good things and helping other people that they may neglect their own needs. Alternatively, they may fight for their chosen cause ignoring everything else in life.
·       Dislike dealing with data. INFP personalities are very much in tune with emotions and morality, but they are likely to have difficulties when it comes to dealing with facts and data, e.g. analyzing connections or finding discrepancies.
·       Difficult to get to know. People with the INFP personality type tend to be private, reserved individuals. They are also likely to be quite self-conscious.
·       Take many things personally. INFPs cherish their ideals and find it very difficult to accept criticism, taking such comments very personally. They also tend to avoid conflict situations, always looking for a solution that satisfies everybody.
·       May be too idealistic. INFP personalities are prone to being too dreamy and idealistic, especially when it comes to romantic relationships. They may idealize – or even idolize – their partner, forgetting that no one is perfect.
·       Impractical. INFPs do not really see practical things as important. They may even forget to eat and drink if they are doing something that excites and motivates them.


Tuesday, June 21, 2016

The Good, the Bad, and the Ugly

Yes - I know that is the title of a Clint Eastwood movie and I did mean to steal it.  The 1966 movie is about 3 men and their quest to find Confederate gold.  Great movie.  This blog is about the impact humans have on our planet and the devastation this has on our wildlife. The photo below represents the good, the bad, and the ugly of a recent snake venture. 


The Good - The good in this photo is my youngest son observing a bullsnake crossing a road.  This is a connection with nature, an understanding that wildlife (snakes) share our planet, and a respect for the bullsnake to allow it to cross the road without harassment.

The Bad - Roads, a railroad, and oil and gas development dominate this photo and all impact our native wildlife in ways that we can't even begin to comprehend.  The one thing they share in common is that they all kill wildlife and allow access for humans into areas that were at one time "wild".

The Ugly - The pink grass in this photo is cheat grass and it is nasty!  It can out-compete native grasses and perennials ultimately dominating the landscape and it has little wildlife use.  For a comprehensive understanding of cheatgrass, I recommend you read this 1996 publication:  Chaeatgrass: The Invader That Won the West.  I find it ugly.

So there you have it - the Good, the Bad, and the Ugly all captured in one photo.  My hope is that as you read this short blog, you open your eyes and see things for what they are and how humans have changed our planet.  Now think of the wildlife and the struggles that they have to just survive in a GREATLY altered world.

Monday, May 9, 2016

The Evolution of a Derby Pig

The Evolution of a Derby Pig - From outdoor oven, to the table, to bones picked clean - this is how it is done.

Thursday, March 31, 2016

Now Will You Believe Me?

A new video came out from  the Advocates for Snake Preservation about rattlesnake round-ups that I want to share with you.  It features the rampant human ignorance about these amazing creatures.  Our media has always portrayed rattlesnakes as deadly, dangerous, and malicious beasts lying in wait to kill you, your family, your horse, and your dog.  This is so far from the truth. 
 
I know you all aren't fans of snakes like I am but I want you to think about one question as you watch the video:  If rattlesnakes are truly dangerous, would these men stand in a pit filled with that many snakes.  No - they are profiting on human fear, ignorance, and evil.  Why would anyone celebrate the killing of an animal with the bloody handprints of children? 

Here is the video and I suggest you watch it more than once.  It takes that to understand the ignorance of the humans hosting and attending events like these.
 
 
It is my wish to take everyone that reads this blog into the field with me so that you may experience rattlesnakes as I do in the wild.  They are incredibly beautiful animals that deserve our respect and appreciation.  I need to write another blog dedicated to their conservation but that will have to happen on a day that isn't so charged with emotion. 
 
I do need to end with a Rattlesnake Selfie that I took with my youngest last summer.  It shows that rattlesnakes are not attacking, deadly, dangerous, or malicious.  They are a integral and CRITICAL part of our healthy ecosystems.  Let's spread the word and keep them here.
 

Rattlesnake Selfie